Evaporating, drifting away, A remain of yesterday...

Mon, 08 Sep 2008 00:45:01 GMT

AUGH.
I can't stand myself! Why do I want so much stuff?!
First things first:
-Nice Pair of Heels
-Boots
-Flammable Paint
-Cardigan

That is ALL I'm picking up next time.

Next topic of the day.
I need to stop over-analyzing and picking everything apart. I drive myself crazy and I stress out TOO much.
And it's not healthy.
I need to breathe and learn to love myself. I can't let these what-ifs take over me, it's my own insecurities and inability to love myself that drive all of this over analysis, self doubt, and jealousies.
I can overcome it.

Of course, that's kind of random, but oh well.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Fri, 29 Aug 2008 07:03:57 GMT

Okay. So I need to start using this thing again.
I think I'll make a make-up blog/my looks kind of thing.

And of course, still will be posting my art. If I ever get around to doing anymore art that is.
I'm so sad. I haven't done anything in such a long time. I need to finish that painting that I started and STILL haven't finished yet. Yeah. For real.

Anyways yeah.
Here's to a new start!

My whore.

Mon, 12 May 2008 04:15:42 GMT

This is all Ashley's fault.
Tegaki.
Yet another thing to obsess with now I suppose.
There ya have it folks. Another drawing of Sakura. I meant to make her green chakra glow around her hand. But... I had to do something, so I just submitted it. I fail at life. Now it looks like she's just doing something stupid with her hand. T_T Or maybe not? Maybe she looks like she's actually going to fight! *_*
Other than that, I didn't know what I was doing! :D
And I forgot to color over that line that's her neck.. that is showing through her collar.. what a mess... X_x

CHILDREN! Please avert your eyes.

And this. :D
Photoshop 7 and all that jazz.

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 06:52:12 GMT

Happy Birthday Sasuke.

Oh, come on, we all know that Sasuke's secretly a pervert. Anyways. I HAD to do something with blood after Ashley and Samurai-PET did fanart with blood. *ahem* And yes, now I see why it's SO FUN. Anyways, I call this one "Target Practice." Get it? xD I'm sure Sasuke hit the bulls-eye this time. Yep. What more could he want for his b-day. >.>
Get it? xD

Yep, happy birthday ya emo bastard.

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 19:40:56 GMT

Finally some new art.
I'm working on the Aria commission for Rie. =)

And so.... hopefully it'll turn out nice.
It'll be a bit of a challenge. Akari's body was a bitch. I fixed it a little. That's why her lines are so dark compared to Aika's and Alice's.
Besides. I might change Alice's expression and stuff too. There's still things to edit. But hopefully the size will remain that way without crashing my computer. I hope to paint a pretty detailed background too because the water in the anime and manga is sooo pretty. xD

Ahh... such a wonderful manga and anime.. Aria...

And of course, there's my other love too. CRIMSON HERO.
I love Nobara. Actually, I love all the girls in the team. I wanna draw little Rena-chan too.
I so wouldn't mind cosplaying in the volleyball uniform. It's quite sexy. Plus I love volleyball. What more could you want?

Ah. Seems that shojo has taken over my life these days.

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 10:25:29 GMT

@#%$ SASUHINA.
I would never have drawn it EVER.
If it wasn't a commission.
And I wish I didn't like the drawing I did of it.
Or I wouldn't put it up here and shame myself. Because I am a shameless SASUSAKU shipper.

That aside.
Know that I HATE this pairing.
It's the drawing I like. :P

I guess you could call me a sellout.
But yeah. If you like the pairing, fine.
I don't care, like what you will.
Just know that I personally don't like this pairing.

Now since that is out of the way.
I can focus on my real loves.
Like my Aria commission.
And more SasuSaku! YAAAAY.

Mon, 16 Jul 2007 07:48:21 GMT

ARGH.
Much as I love the current arc and all.
I am tired of all the Sasuke fighting...

When are we going to see Naruto and Hinata work together?
Why does Kishimoto never give me what I want?! D:
ARGH. Curses. Curse you Sasuke and your never ending fights and your damn sharingan.
Isn't it supposed to be called Naruto?

Fuck.

And I want a catfight soon.
Sakura vs. Karin.

ARGH. My head hurts.
Bed I go.

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 20:59:04 GMT

Aigooooooooooooooo.
Aigoooooooooo.
AIGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

I've become.
More Taiwanese.
I finished watching the Hana Kimi Taiwanese Drama. OMG. It was soooo good. T___T

Ugh. The acting was fantastic.
Dude. I LOVE Jiro Wang. He was sooo damn funny. OMG. And Yang Yang made the best Senri Nakao. Gosh. It was SOOO adorable. xD I was laughing sooo hard on the fighting scene. "WHAT ARE YOU DOING YOU STUPID BEE!"

JIRO! XD

Yang yang. x3

Of course. Watching this drama made me proud of being Taiwanese.
The last episode, you won't understand the jokes, unless you know Taiwanese. I was LAUGHING so hard. xD
70 bucks! XD MAHAHAHAH. SO FUNNY.
Crazy Drama.
Made me laugh so hard.

I LOVE DANSON TANG TOO. Or... NANBA from Hana Kimi. Perfect for the role. xD Hot and knows it too. xD
And that one that played Da Shou. xD Or Kayashima Daiki as he's known in the manga.
GAH. Ethan Ruan too! XD He was the best Kagurazaka. Freaking Hottie. Gah.

LOVE.

Oh my goodness. I'm spazzing. I want to send my relatives to go buy the DVD for me now. Just so I can watch it with clarity. xDDDDD I wish they filmed it in Taiwanese not Chinese. D: I'm going to send my relatives to buy me the Fahrenheit CDs too. Ahahah, the band that Jiro Wang is in. Wu Chun is in it too. He was Sano for the Hana Kimi drama. But I don't like him as much. HAHAHAHAHA. Ella was adorable though. xD

FAHRENHEIT! XD

Yeah.
And ONE MORE PICTURE OF HOTNESS. xD

I don't know who that guy on the left is, but Danson Tang is in the Middle and Jiro is on the very right.
And SUNGLASSES.
Guys are hot in sunglasses.
Dude. Taiwanese guys can be pretty damn hot. xD
They're ALL Taiwanese. xDDDDDD

Man. Now I want to watch more Taiwanese dramas based off of manga. xD They also made MARS, It Started With a Kiss, Devil Beside You, Meteor Garden, and Tokyo Juliet. (Meaning more Jiro Wang and Danson Tang. xD)
I saw Peach Girl! But I didn't like it.
So I think those were based off of.. Mars, Hana Yori Dango, Akuma de Souro, Itazura na Kiss... those things. xD All of them Manga too. Making me want to read them too.. GAH. Stupid obsessions.

I want to watch It Started With A Kiss (ISWAK) and Devil Beside You. xD
GAH. Hana Kimi 2 is coming out 2008! Can't Wait! ISWAK 2 is coming out too. I better watch it soon.

Happy Nana Day! XD

Sun, 08 Jul 2007 23:21:51 GMT

Hahaha. So yeah.
Nana Day. xD
Celebrating with.. an artwork! And pictures of my cosplay. Hahaha.

My favorite picture of me and Hannah as Nana and Hachi. x3

From Dustin: (I really liked his pictures)

(I like this shot of me. xD) I actually look a lot like Nana here.

With Shin and Reira. xD

Another Shin. There's also another picture of Nana, Hachi, and another Shin that I still have to get from my friend. D:

Me singing as Nana. That was fun. xD Singing Endless Story or Glamorous Sky.

Last but not least, me and Hannah. When Michael was making us laugh so bad. But somehow, it makes this picture seem much cuter than the first one huh? xD It's like Nana and Hachi, when they laugh together a lot. Ahahah, I love you Hannah. xD

Happy Nana Day~

Sat, 07 Jul 2007 01:36:54 GMT

1. Mitona/Oushou Chikubai
-Dekkopachi
-Light Flower
2. Haruya Takamiya/Honey Canon
-She So Cute*
3. Yoko Fujitani/Konjou Kumiai
-Mizuhebi No Odori*
-Doremi No Uta*
4. Tsuchinokoyui
-Wotome 4stories*
-Full Bloom Blue Butterfly*
5. mel
-Sweet Trap
-Sasuke Vs. Kakashi?!
6. Tansuikabutu/Taneimo & Azuki
-Seishun Shiterunaa
7. Angel Service/zijyo kishikawa
-Nobody Knows
-Over the Rainbow

The doujinshi list is so much shorter now. xD And there's 3 more that will get knocked off the list soon. xD Yay! If all goes well with the auctions.
And yeah, I'll be doing my digital commissions soon. xD I'll post the sketches soon.

Anime Expo was CRAZY.
But I'm never doing Artist Alley again.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/9657297@N03/sets/72157600637904042/
Pictures I took. OMG.
I'm going to do AX Idol next year. I was Nana Oosaki, the punk Nana. And people kept asking me if I did AX Idol because I sang her and Reira's song onstage at open mic. What shocked me, was that EVERYONE WENT CRAZY in the room. Omg. Scared me so much. That I jumped back like.. 3 feet the first time. But it kept happening... so yeah. I'm going to try next year!

Adding my Sakura Cosplay pics. I'm the time-skip Sakura. xD (Nana Cosplay pics later.)

Eee, I really like this picture. xD

Found Sakura's Time-Skip team. =) Took forever to get out of this pose. So many people wanted a picture of this. D:

SasuSaku! XDDDDD I'm so stupid. And a shameless shipper of this pairing. :D But this Sasuke was a cutie.

Mini Naruto Gathering.

Me vs. Female Orochimaru. SO MANY PEOPLE JUMPED TO TAKE THIS PICTURE. MY GOD.

I thought this was so funny and cute. xD A Man Sakura. HAHAHAHAH.

Sakura sure loves Starbucks. xD

Sakura and Jill Valentine switch weapons. xD I love you Rochelle! xD

I almost fell of that damn thing. But that pose is sooo cool. xD

And LAST. Sakura sitting with her Sasuke plushie. God I love that thing. xD

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 19:55:43 GMT

So that makes 6 bookmarks and 4 prints total. Cost so much just to print them. D:
And I've got cosplays to finish. And Nana's to finish. And songs to learn!

Tue, 26 Jun 2007 18:44:29 GMT

FINISH HAKU.

Fri, 22 Jun 2007 18:07:22 GMT

Gaddamn.
Another bookmark.
I finished this the day I left for camp. Which was Thursday.
I wouldn't have posted this till Monday..
but I had to come home to get my diploma.. -__-;;

But I like how Hinata came out. XD

I wish someone could make a SasuSaku layout for me with my art. I would draw art as a reward. XD

AHHHHHH

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 11:32:22 GMT

So. I went to Hannah's today. And spent freaking.. 5 hours making an ANBU vest. But tis done! And I are happy.

And I have sooo many prints and stuff I have to make.
I apologize Risa. Your Reno and Vincent will have to wait. D:
And I probably won't finish Chrono... or that print of Blast that I wanted to do.

But good news! I finished Sakura. She didn't take that long. And I did a Gaara bookmark too. So hopefully I can squeeze in: Sasuke, Naruto, Hinata, Haku, and other characters. I need to do the popular ones.. >.< Damn, I hope I have time to do Shikamaru, Rock Lee, Temari.. and Akatsuki chibis...
And I still have to do Anbu Itachi.. D:

Nana Bookmark.
Blast.
Chrono print.
Reno.
Vincent.
I wanna do all these too. D:
And some Bleach. But I doubt I can fit that in.. T___T

UGH. Stresssssssssss. If only I didn't have camp.. Dx

Sat, 09 Jun 2007 04:33:25 GMT

Update the doujinshi list. @_@ I got rid of a lot on the list.. but I added more. Reminds me of my CD list. XD

1. Mitona/Oushou Chikubai
-Dekkopachi
-Light Flower
2. Haruya Takamiya/Honey Canon
-She So Cute*
4. Yoko Fujitani/Konjou Kumiai
-Mizuhebi No Odori*
-Doremi No Uta*
-Nana*
6. Tsuchinokoyui
-Wotome 4stories
-Full Bloom Blue Butterfly
7. mel
-Sweet Trap
-Sasuke Vs. Kakashi?!
8. Emi/10-Rankai
-Taiyou no Sumika 3
9. Ibushigin & Fugashi-Do
-Aisouka (Jiraiya & Tsunade)
10. Angel Service/zijyo kishikawa
-Nobody Knows
-Over the Rainbow*

AHHHH. And I must finish my AX stuff. I'm scared. D:

I'm gonna die prematurely.

Wed, 17 Jan 2007 00:11:13 GMT

Because I NEVER get enough sleep these days! A quick entry before I go back to reading my English book and having to write my essay. Argh. Darn it all. Yep. Too much hw and fangirling going around. I revived my Naruto fandom.. so I'll be uhm.. going crazy the next month or so finishing Naruto things for prints. Friday: played the Japanese version of an awesome Naruto game, NOT Clash of Ninja at my friend's house. Saturday: Read doujin with Risa. Sunday: WATCHED NARUTO ANIME. xD I'm in LOOOOOVE. I ACTUALLY started watching the Naruto anime. God, I LOVE Sasuke's voice. It's soo.. O_O I love how he says.. "Sakura." I'm becoming like Risa and getting a voice fetish or something. O_O I quite like Kiba's and Gaara's voice too.

And Rock Lee owns. Hands down.

'nough said.

NOW! And treat for you! XD

Yep. The tattoo my friend commissioned for me that I finished during winter break. Forgot to post up the finished version. He got it done this weekend. Let's hope it came out good. xD I told him to gimme a picture.

Finish Gaia commission. Last for a long time. But I like how it came out, so it's going here. xD

NOW. THE MOMENT YOU WAIT FOR.
MORE SASUSAKU. MAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH.

xD The latest. It's actually a marker and color pencil drawing that is their normal colors.. but the scan came out fugly. So I messed with it. And it came out like this. HER EYE IS CROOKED!!!!!!! Gah. Oh well. I like it.

And the doujin cover I have planned. I think I'll call it, "Someone To Lean On." If you look at Sakura's axe carefully, you'll see she doesn't have it on her shoulder, it's on Sasuke's. xD
I have like.. 7 mini stories planned out for it. xD It'll be.. some serious and some crack. Bahahahaha. It'll be fun. xD

And last thing.. Yeah, reg for Anime Expo for me!!! Wed, January 17 at 7 pm!! xD I'll give you the card tomorrow. :D

And for my own use... Doujin I want list!!!! Err, just scroll all the way down, it's long and ya don't gotta read it. O_O
1. Mitona/Oushou Chikubai
-Gekkouyoku
-Dekkopachi
-Yasa
-We're Not Meant to Be
-Light Flower
2. Haruya Takamiya/Honey Canon
-She So Cute*
4. Yoko Fujitani/Konjou Kumiai
-Mizuhebi No Odori*
-Doremi No Uta*
-Nemuru Suisha
6. Tsuchinokoyui
-Wotome 4stories
-Full Bloom Blue Butterfly
7. mel
-Sweet Trap
-Sasuke Vs. Kakashi?!
8. Emi/10-Rankai
-Citrus Lovers*
-Actually.. anything by her. O_O I love her art enough to buy any of her NaruSasu, or her Uchiha brothers stuff. xD;;;
9. Ibushigin & Fugashi-Do
-Aisouka (Jiraiya & Tsunade)
10. Tansuikabutu/Taneimo & Azuki
-Seishun Shiterunaa
11. Angel Service/zijyo kishikawa
-Nobody Knows

Just cuz.

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 12:03:01 GMT

Yep. I HAD to go doujinshi exploring while I was doing homework. And god, SO MUCH Honey Canon doujinshi I want. Dx MAN, I wish I could bid on Japanese auctions, but they don't let you unless you're a Japanese resident or something. I could do deputy bidding.. but I'm iffy on doing that you know? You have to deposit money first and depending on how much you deposit is how much more you can bid up to. And you have to pay them a fee. They'll go and be middlemen, they're in Japan, buy for you, ship to you~ Meh. Dun trust it. Dx But doujinshi hunting would be sooo much easier.

Those are.. Togirenu Ito and Rest. Respectively. I saw Togirenu on ebay.. ONCE. and I let it get away. WAAAH. These two are Honey Canon's more "naughty" doujinshi. I want it dammit! The Togirenu has color in it too. Dx
So I want those and She So Cute, Harujion, Caramelo Familia, Mixture, and Electrical Spirits too.

But it doesn't matter? I bought 4 more doujinshi. 3 of which are Honey Canon. Mahahaha. No real reason for this entry. I wanna show it to Risa ahahahahha.

Eh, well, I finished my research paper at least. It's 4 in the morning. I go shower and bed now.

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 01:32:07 GMT

So angry. =_=
Oekaki messed up.
REALLY BADLY.

So that's all I could do.
Struggling for 3 hours. It kept messing up.
So I just fucking deleted it.
I don't care. =(
And it was coming out so well...

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 09:57:54 GMT

Boom bam zot!!!!
And again, while neglecting my Physics hw.. I draw more instead.
GUESS WHAT I DREW?!

Hm.
Good guess.
You're probably right~
What else do I EVER ever draw?

Actually did this one a few days ago~
I like the colors.
Too bad it's only a sketch.
But it matches my journal colors so perfectly~

I've not done.. an oekaki in forever.
Just felt like doing one.
So I did.
Today. Just finished it.
3.5 hours. Wow, that was quick. x3

Now. Hopefully I'm out of this Sasuke Sakura funk.

ANBU cosplay. x3

Thus ends the art jam. xD
And yeah, I'm updating a lot huh? Still, be sure to check for responses in the last entry~

God damn.

Fri, 01 Dec 2006 12:09:23 GMT

When I SHOULD be studying for econ.. what do I do?! I don't study. That's what. Sensing a trend? xD

INSTEAD!

I make this.

I'm doomed I tell ya.
Why do I like this pairing so much? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?

Anyways, yeah, new LJ icon.. made by.. Moi. :D

Oh no, here it is yet again.

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 07:54:42 GMT

Okay.. by this point, no one should be surprised. Tahahahaha. Oh fantasyland~ I felt I haven't done any SasuSaku recently.. and isn't that what I'm all about? Gosh, I waste my time with these two fools, when I should be learning how to draw other Naruto character.. but NOOOOO all I know is.. how to draw... Sakura, Sasuke, Naruto, Hinata, and.. Haku. BAHAHAHAHAH. OMG, there are NO OTHERS. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

I've just gone nuts.

I've got to do some Nana art soon.

Fuck. My Nana ring broke already.

Cheap piece a shit.

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 06:05:33 GMT

Yeah, okay.

School started once again.

But it still hasn't kicked in completely. The exhaustion, the weariness, the overall.. pressure? Yeah, and I'm still the worst procrastinator ever. How come it only happens to things that are related to school.. and not to things like kung fu?

I really wanna know. I mean, man, I even started procrastinating on art. And that just can't be a good sign. I mean, is there really a person that exists that won't pick a penny just because its tails up? I know I just pick them up because they're a waste of time.

But this is an art blog after all. So I'll post up some lame work in progress screen shot. I'm not totally far gone.. but I don't have time to finish this.. I've got such a good idea for a background and all.. x3 It's a secret.

Seriously, the anatomy on this thing is so bad, it's not even funny. But that's what I get for wanting to make some CG out of Arion.. but not wanting to draw on or work on new and better linearts. Tsk tsk. Lazy lazy. Can't believe. Man shoot, I'm trying to have my depth to my shading, but don't know if that's working. I like the hair. But that's the only thing I like in my stuff lately.

Next.

I'm a SENIOR.
BAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH. God, I hated those pictures. And Designer pictures, like wtf?

And that's all folks! Until next time! Or when I actually finish something...

And damn. In Art, we had to draw some cards for 9/11, for the school that's near where the twin towers were located. Honestly, I feel sorry for that school, they must get like.. billions of letters/cards a year for this. I think they'd be tired after the 3rd year, honestly.

Master at wasting time is I!

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 06:37:00 GMT

My this is crappy. This is so crappy. I cannot draw Rukia to save my life. I never can and I never will ahahahhaah. I tried a new way of coloring too... semi lineless? Didn't really work I guess.

Oh I hate myself.

I can't believe.. it hahahahah. I cannot believe I would decide to do this in an hour, instead of work on my essays. I'm doomed.

Oh school just can't come fast enough~

About a week left. I better finish. I'm going to fail~

Gaia sketch I did about a week ago. DarkishStar just keeps changing. XD I'm such an outfit whore on Gaia.. so I always draw these things. Took forever though. I tried a new way of shading. It was fun. Took a lot of erasing though.. and I can never stop the paper from smudging.. but I stopped caring awhile ago. ahahahha.

I still think I draw arms too thin. I'll try and improve on that.

That time of the year is almost here.. And you all know what that means...

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 20:52:20 GMT

Yep. I've decided.. the time has come to revive this baby. I really want to make a sketch bloggish thing now. Maybe it'll make me practice and draw more just to post on this damn thing. See, I got bored of Xanga, so I'm back here again. This ALWAYS seems to happen. But that's beside the point.

I think the first thing I need to do for this little livejournal thing is draw a background for this thing. I'd like to do some kind of thing with Bubo, Flex, and Grimp. XD Like them all jumping to the ground or something in a bottom left corner. I'll figure it out a lot later. They still need designs finalized. I'll probably never change Bubo's design again as long as I live. Although I ignore him the most so far. Pity. I've never really gotten obsessed over Bubo like I have with Grimp in the past though it's now Flex. Strange.

The military girls can stay the same. I'd like to do another image of them.. but one thing at a time I guess. Enyanla needs a big revamp. I don't like her character design at the moment. So I suppose she's still in the works. And I guess I've got to practice Thred and Mischief since I've been so generously loaned of the two by my dear friend.

So the real point of this all is.. school is coming. Yes, my little bit of relished freedom is drawing to a conclusion. And I've still got all this work to do before school starts. An end of an era is coming folks! Of course, I'm sure an alien invasion will take place first, or maybe a new volcano will form right here, right where we stand. Of course the world is predicted to END in the year of.. 2012? Pity. I'll probably never have married by then. Not that I would want to really. I don't even want children... I want to keep my skinny little body~ I'm too selfish and conceited for these kind of things..

But I digress...

I'm getting a little ahead of myself. But the reality is, I don't know what is to come after high school ends for me. It's a big world out there.. and it's been really nice getting to know people, getting close to people, and lots of other most pleasing pastimes. There's going to be no merging to the next school or registration like there was this year. That's going to be over. Wow, I'm really getting ahead of myself. I'm in a really strange mood, though that might correspond to the fact that I don't want to write an economics essay right now.

Sad, I didn't even get to enjoy the summer before Senior year that much all because I was grounded. And time never repeats itself, so I guess I've missed out on it all.

And talking like this saddens me. And it bores me too. I bore myself.

But you know, thankfully I'm not that emo-depressed little wangster I used to be in 10th grade. Man, I used to whine a lot, about how I couldn't do anything, how depressed I was, how disappointed I was in myself.. etc. It was a lot of bullshit. I guess I thought it was trendy at the time. That was really stupid. You know, I've done lots of stupid things in my life, but that one kind of takes the cake. There are people worse off, always, and yet, those people can smile, but I happen to find it trendy to be all depressed and stupid when really, life isn't so bad. Sure, studying sucks, sure a lot of pressure from parents to do well isn't the most... tolerable, but I have learned to deal just a little better than before. Honestly, you can't really be down on yourself so much or so harsh to yourself, but it's okay you know? Everyone is only human. And though we all feel that sense of helplessness... it's no use trying to... complain about it all the time, what we all need is some ACTION that will help us you know? I suppose that's easier said than done, but by now, I've accepted that certain things are not my fault and they shouldn't have been. I shouldn't have been accused of some things that were in no one's control. NO ONE should be blamed for anything that's happened, what people should do is IGNORE the blame and focus on the actual problem. Then something can be done and hopefully the situation will improve. It's so easy to say and just the obvious solution, and yet it's not so easy. If it was, there would be a lot less problems out there in the world you know? It's too much for one person to just take on a burden, there just isn't that kind of capacity for just a mere human to handle all type of situations or hell, even take on the world. Unless you're some sort of deity. And as far as I know, people who try to act like some sort of omnipotent being don't find things solved either. The nature of humans is to be social right? So in order to solve problems, we would therefore have to cooperate and acquiesce to one another's problem in order to gain that sort of help in return? Only then, can true focus be on the problem, not just mere speculation, and hopefully the situation wouldn't be as dire as before, maybe the true solution will be elucidated.

When did I become such a fucking psychologist anyways?

Are we in therapy now?

No.

I sure don't need it. =)

Then again, if you have too much confidence, people can tell you that, you're too full of yourself, that you have no need to be proud of whatever you are. After all, most of us are.. average or nothing really, so why need the confidence? I don't really know, but I hate that fine line, that double-edged feeling you know? That you're screwed if you do, screwed if you don't. Like if you decide to be sad or depressed, you're this fucking little emo, but if you want to be happy or confident people get annoyed because you're too proud. Well then what the hell are you supposed to be? I suppose I'm not the first to discuss this but, I just keep on rambling on and on because honestly, what else is there to do? I envy those pepole who KNOW what they want in life, who already know where they're going to go, what they're destined for. I'm just lost when I come to this. The future is just so unknown, so I just try to take it in stride because I'm sure that no matter the decision anyone makes for that matter, it should turn out all right in the end. Because life's not that bad right?

I think so. =)
I think it's a change for the better.